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Last Chemo This Week!!!!!!

Hopefully this was my last chemo.....went into the hospital on Monday. All the nurses knew me. I was nauseous walking in! They knew the routine wondering when I was going to get rid of my parents... At first I had a private room..It was great...meant to be..don't have to solve the world's problems. All of a sudden this young girl, Carmelina, walks in with the most enormous boobs and doesn't speak english...great..I asked her where her cancer was and she points to her boobs. The nurse came in and whispered she has leukemia , she's 24, no family, no money no nothing. Speaks Spanish only..She has no health insurance and a lot of treatment is done for free..she checks in a day earlier because she likes to eat. Great...now I feel so sorry for her...we tried to communicate and the day ended. The next day she was crying and going out to talk to the other nurses. all day something was wrong..she came in and I asked her what's up...A nurse interpreter came in she explained she was 5 weeks pregnant and they want her to abort the baby right away. She has been getting chemo for the last month and if she stopped it would kill her..and also the baby was exposed to chemo..the nurse said to me try to help her....so I gave her fifty dollars because she had no money....she smiled...then I let her use my computer for her email.....she used it and was so happy. Then after that she started crying...I said CALL THE PRIEST!!! She wanted to hear she was doing the right thing...nurse said in the morning....I woke up buzzed for the nurse and said CALL THE PRIEST! The priest came directly to my bed...you're not for me I'm sinless..haha I explained the situation..the Priest spoke to her...Meanwhile my doctor comes in and wants to give me a blood transfusion...I flipped...no "Amerigan" blood...what if some Irish blood gets in me ..I want pure Sicilian blood..while I was talking to the doctor Carmelina disappears. I have to get this blood transfusion and check out..I'm done....but where is my lunch..I'm starved.....The nurse comes in and I asked where is Carmelina...oh she's down in McDoanlds....whaT!!!!! something is wrong with this picture....she's eating using my money and I'm up here..starved......oh well.....My parents came to pick me up....Good thing it was in the afternoon...my mom did her food shopping...guess what...she bought spinach for dinner.

weekend

Off to the shore this weekend....white count good ...red count good ....the "other end" good...see ya.....party time...

Doctor Day and Hol -i- day

Hope everyone had a great holiday! Every home I visited I did the drunken homeless women with my wig. Not feeling good at all. This was the worst I felt. I don't know if it's because I ate everything in site or it is the side effects from the chemo. Take my word...my body is empty. I had to leave work today and the doctor took me quickly. I listed all the holiday items I ate..so I was in the office for an hour. He wanted a sample to see if I had an infection in my colon.......I told him no chance ..nothing left. My mother thinks it was an uncooked egg in one of the Italian pies......everything had to be over cooked when I was growing up to avoid getting sick....hamburgers were like black Frisbees.

I'm home now waiting to get a sample....how fun is my life right now!!! Blood counts are still low but my weight went up two pounds. Wrong numbers are going up!!!

When Louis finds out I will be in the bubble with no food now.

Back From the Chemo Tour

Well I went to Chemo Monday through Wednesday. It was the usual. Working from my bed as the nurses got in the way taking my blood pressure and giving me needles. My roommate was interesting this time around. I walked in and asked ..Where's your cancer? She replied she didn't have cancer ..she was in for tests. Her scans turned out fine and she was still in pain. I think she was faking..the worst thing she had was heart burn!!!! the meals weren't that good to hang around!! My mom and dad couldn't do enough for her when they visited...please just leave her alone...Had to get a stent put in on Wednesday afternoon which meant being put to sleep. They said no eating and drinking after dinner on Tuesday. So I woke up Wednesday morning and they wouldn't even give me an ice chip...Nazis...I begged..they gave me two ice chips. (big deal) After the procedure they gave me water and said take it easy....Take it easy!!!!!! I'm starved...when I got back to the room the Nazis were going to give me soup!!! I sent my dad down to the cafeteria and woofed down a turkey sandwich...Let's get out of here!!!.When I came home Wednesday night was fine but Thursday it hit me....I called Patti and she told me to suck it up...My mother was giving me a list of foods that she thought would make me feel better...as she ran down the hundred items she would provide for me..it made me sicker...a plain omelet was also suggested....

This cancer thing is so draining..sometimes I choose to ignore and go about my life. I even ordered a grilled chicken, cheese, and roasted pepper pannini at lunch on Thursday.....Reality kicked in...roasted peppers are not the way to go...Well this cancer got me the best gift ever. A Kenny Stabler signed jersey. It's beautiful...after I received that the Nazis and roasted peppers were a faded memory..

Updates and Doctor Day

Louass and I went to Sloan on Thursday to get a cat scan and see the doctor. Before we left I brought him to my favorite lunch spot..7-11 and got him those wrapped sandwiches...I love them. When we got into the city Louass ate a Gyro for more nervous relief...I was anxious about the whole thing...Sloan is so organized. The big Raspberry drink before the CAT scan wasn't so bad... I asked for vodka..the I went into the changing room with a bunch of "older" women. My robe was so small. I asked the ladies what they thought of my wig and they were very complimentary.

I was hoping for a surgery date...I really wanted to it done fast..maybe ruin Easter hahaha...The doctor felt the tumor needed to shrink more and I needed two more rounds of chemo. I was so disappointed....now I bet my Memorial Day is ruined.....as we left the city Louass bought a dirty hot dog near the tunnel while the car was moving..amazing.

Went down the shore this weekend and talked so much my throat hurts. It was great seeing the whole gang! The wig was a big hit , but I did I show my bald head in the ladies room upon request. The beach was great and got in a lot of fun before sitting in the hospital tomorrow. Keep you posted!!

Doctor Day! #1 This week

Where are all the posts???anyone out there???

Today I went to check the white blood cell count. When I park in the cancer parking section, I look at everyone walking out. I think to myself..that person has cancer? or what about that person..they look it...or look at that person..she probably just works here....As I left my car I knew people would know I had cancer because of my wig...at the end the day I look like a drunken homeless woman...sometimes the wig slants! Then I needed to put some rain bonnet my mom gave me on my head to protect my wig. I didn't look like I had cancer..I looked like a drunken homeless woman who was a grandma!!!

White blood count great..my family will let me out this weekend. This weekend was such horrible weather..it's actually was so depressing. I had plans down the shore , but I used good sense not to chance getting sick and stayed home ...Patti said I should have sucked it up and went...she doesn't know yet she's not in my will!!!

Thursday is the big day at Sloan..My brother and I love that buffet across the street from the hospital. We planned to get there early and attack the buffet!!! Well bad news ..I can't eat before the CAT scan....does this suck...???? If I have to watch my brother eat I will have a meltdown...cancer is majorly inconvenient.