Back From the Chemo Tour

Well I went to Chemo Monday through Wednesday. It was the usual. Working from my bed as the nurses got in the way taking my blood pressure and giving me needles. My roommate was interesting this time around. I walked in and asked ..Where's your cancer? She replied she didn't have cancer ..she was in for tests. Her scans turned out fine and she was still in pain. I think she was faking..the worst thing she had was heart burn!!!! the meals weren't that good to hang around!! My mom and dad couldn't do enough for her when they visited...please just leave her alone...Had to get a stent put in on Wednesday afternoon which meant being put to sleep. They said no eating and drinking after dinner on Tuesday. So I woke up Wednesday morning and they wouldn't even give me an ice chip...Nazis...I begged..they gave me two ice chips. (big deal) After the procedure they gave me water and said take it easy....Take it easy!!!!!! I'm starved...when I got back to the room the Nazis were going to give me soup!!! I sent my dad down to the cafeteria and woofed down a turkey sandwich...Let's get out of here!!!.When I came home Wednesday night was fine but Thursday it hit me....I called Patti and she told me to suck it up...My mother was giving me a list of foods that she thought would make me feel better...as she ran down the hundred items she would provide for me..it made me sicker...a plain omelet was also suggested....

This cancer thing is so draining..sometimes I choose to ignore and go about my life. I even ordered a grilled chicken, cheese, and roasted pepper pannini at lunch on Thursday.....Reality kicked in...roasted peppers are not the way to go...Well this cancer got me the best gift ever. A Kenny Stabler signed jersey. It's beautiful...after I received that the Nazis and roasted peppers were a faded memory..

Updates and Doctor Day

Louass and I went to Sloan on Thursday to get a cat scan and see the doctor. Before we left I brought him to my favorite lunch spot..7-11 and got him those wrapped sandwiches...I love them. When we got into the city Louass ate a Gyro for more nervous relief...I was anxious about the whole thing...Sloan is so organized. The big Raspberry drink before the CAT scan wasn't so bad... I asked for vodka..the I went into the changing room with a bunch of "older" women. My robe was so small. I asked the ladies what they thought of my wig and they were very complimentary.

I was hoping for a surgery date...I really wanted to it done fast..maybe ruin Easter hahaha...The doctor felt the tumor needed to shrink more and I needed two more rounds of chemo. I was so disappointed....now I bet my Memorial Day is ruined.....as we left the city Louass bought a dirty hot dog near the tunnel while the car was moving..amazing.

Went down the shore this weekend and talked so much my throat hurts. It was great seeing the whole gang! The wig was a big hit , but I did I show my bald head in the ladies room upon request. The beach was great and got in a lot of fun before sitting in the hospital tomorrow. Keep you posted!!

Doctor Day! #1 This week

Where are all the posts???anyone out there???

Today I went to check the white blood cell count. When I park in the cancer parking section, I look at everyone walking out. I think to myself..that person has cancer? or what about that person..they look it...or look at that person..she probably just works here....As I left my car I knew people would know I had cancer because of my wig...at the end the day I look like a drunken homeless woman...sometimes the wig slants! Then I needed to put some rain bonnet my mom gave me on my head to protect my wig. I didn't look like I had cancer..I looked like a drunken homeless woman who was a grandma!!!

White blood count great..my family will let me out this weekend. This weekend was such horrible weather..it's actually was so depressing. I had plans down the shore , but I used good sense not to chance getting sick and stayed home ...Patti said I should have sucked it up and went...she doesn't know yet she's not in my will!!!

Thursday is the big day at Sloan..My brother and I love that buffet across the street from the hospital. We planned to get there early and attack the buffet!!! Well bad news ..I can't eat before the CAT scan....does this suck...???? If I have to watch my brother eat I will have a meltdown...cancer is majorly inconvenient.

Updates from the Cancer Cave

I finally got Patti's card. It wasn't easy. First she wanted me to pick it up this weekend at her house while I'm recovering from my chemo and feeling so fatigued. Monday Patti wanted me to stop by school to pick up the card...I didn't give in...finally she dropped it off at my house and it was worth the wait...Patti wins first place card...:)

This weekend just rested and watched Lifetime TV..Sunday feeling just sick of being sick. Couldn't take one minute and told Kathy I was going to overdose...yes on stool softeners...can't take that one side effect!!

Went to the doctor's today and the white blood count is low...need to stay away from germs!!!! Went to dinner with my family and I was afraid my brother was going to bring out the bubble after hearing the news of my blood test. My mother told me she defrosted two steaks,but I said ma ..I'm not anemic anymore..My brother yelled when I took the ketchup off another table who had kids. My father and mother are throwing their handi wipes at me like I was about to catch an enormous germ..Came home and no bubble at the door. I'm still free!!

POEM by Cathy Dixon

For Betty

Sometimes there no rhyme or reason

Or why the rain picks its season

It just comes our way

We hope it goes away

Sometimes the light shines upon us

Then the dark makes it dusk

And we don't like the change

Maybe it's all too strange

In life we always chase the highs

And when the lows come we strive

To run as fast as we can

We don't like to bend

Are our lessons really treason?

And the pain an awful reason

To stand up and fight

Give the bark a bite?

I don't know

I'm just a survivor of the blow...

CD

Home!!!

Home from the hospital and feeling great. Went to work today and felt energetic..this weekend watch it kick in...dam..The hospital stay was not so bad. I helped my room mate who was an 89 year old woman named Jenny who didn't speak English. I kept making her smile. She understood curse words!! The t-shirts were a big hit. All the nurses came into read them. So chemo went smoothly and I came home yesterday afternoon. Both North and South teams were represented. Thanks guys..

In the hospital they told me I was anemic from the chem....so of course my mom and dad made me steak..there were left over string beans ...so I told my mother to make an omelet......no comment....

My cave is a great ..46inch flat screen and a new rug. I got the rug installed while I was in the hospital. My mother was so angry that I scheduled that during my hospital visit and that my dad had to sit in my house. I said "Ma, cancer patients need to know that their life is still moving forward....hence the rug. My mom caught on ...said BS Betty Lou..you knew what you were doing...(hehe)

Wore my wig for the first time to school....I kept asking people how do you like it ..I decided just to call attention to it...I told the men in the building...I just know you are attracted to me.....but now I know how dogs feel when their head gets rubbed...it's the greatest ..I can't stop rubbing my stubble head!!! Patti still no card....

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